b a w a n g m e r a h: Februari 2013

aku pernah cakap kan, ada lima perkara yang aku nak buat lepas hati aku bengkak macam tak sudah-sudah. bodoh betul. hati yang sekeping ni pun tak gheti-gheti nak jaga. nasib baik ada sekeping. kalau berkeping-keping?

haaa...

bila aku ada sesi pillow-talk dengan kakak kat secret recipe, last-last kakak kata -

"macam ni lah in. kau doa. mintak kat Tuhan"

the thing is, aku berani cakap yang aku kadang-kadang putus asa nak berdoa pada Tuhan aku. it's like i don't see a way (or ways), jadik aku berhenti berdoa. i only pray for my family. untuk diri aku - zilch. selama aku give up, selama tu lah aku takkan menyebut kisah aku yang berantakan pada Tuhan aku.

tapi, aku patut katakan kat sini, my God has His work done mysteriously. and that makes me to keep coming back to Him. tadah tangan balik - luah sebanyak-banyak tidak.

eh, mana kita tadi?

ya. lima perkara.

become a vegetarian

tak tahu sampai bila aku nak pilih jalan hidup ni. memang betul aku menyusahkan orang sekeliling, lagi-lagi family aku. yang lelaki, memang pemakan daging yang tegar. abah, an, mohd, fahd. kalau boleh, tiap-tiap hari mesti ada menu ayam kat rumah ni. bila keluar, dorang kadang-kadang nak pergi makan kfc. end up, aku order kentang putar dan coleslaw sahaja. it was the same when i once had a casual outing with my senior. nasib baik aku dibagi ultimate authority to choose the place to eat. so, aku pilih nandos yang mana aku kecewa gila dengan vegetarian food-nya. my senior, seperti manusia lain, tanyakan aku perkara yang sama - what happen kalau aku makan daging? dan semestinya, aku tak ada jawapan yang konkrit.

dengan cara hidup aku macam ni, somehow, i believe, not everyone can accept me. apatah lagi untuk berkongsi hidup sampai izrail pulls out my soul nanti.

work out to be skinny

salah ke? bagi aku, tak. sebab aku belajar banyak perkara tentang nutrisi pemakanan. yet, i have to admit that my crash diet suatu ketika dulu sememangnya agresif dan ekstrim. tapi aku tak menyesal pun. now, i am more than happy to know i can wear the s-size, instead of m. all my baju kurung need to be altered. all my outfits are picked from children's outlet. and most importantly, i won't stop myself from dieting walaupun people around me keep bitching i'm getting smaller. aku still tak puas hati dengan my figure :(

doll up myself

surprisingly, meja solek aku dah macam tak muat dah. penuh dengan macam-macam. but, it doesn't matter. ok, cuba tengok what have i bought in my current life -

i fall in love with silky girl cosmetic - oh no !

i know i know. aku dah mula rasa aura kegadisan dalam diri aku. kalau dulu, siap cakap kat umi, i don't like make up. sekaraaannggggggg

ha, next time jangan main cakap lepas. kan dah makan diri dah.

eh, alang-alang bercerita kisah dolling up ourself ni, i wanna share with you guys how i treat my acne. muka orang asia macam aku ni memang takkan terlepas punya dengan masalah jerawat. thank God, kulit aku bukan jenis cepat berminyak !

ok, here's what i have that come in handy :

+ you tahu tak i beli ni (sambil tunjuk mouthwash) for my face? i cuci muka pakai ni.

- you biar betul.

+ iya. sebab pakai ni boleh kills bacteria.

- aa...ye lah. you ingat bakteria kat muka sama dengan bakteria dalam mulut ke?

+ [sentap]

bila budak medic membuat justifikasi, susah betul budak education nak membidas. fine la. fine.

but somehow, this method works for me. perhaps you guys can try it (if you dare to take the risk).

1. wash your face with cold water. kalau pakai air suam pun, boleh. i used to wash my face with warm water when i was in auckland.

2. kemudian, amek kapas muka and letakkan mouthwash (any brand will do) sedikit padanya. kalau nak banyak pun, boleh. sukahati la kan.

3. then, sapukan kapas tadi ke seluruh muka. selalunya, aku sental muka kasi kotoran semua terkeluar. you'll find the cotton is no longer whitish. kalau aku baru pulang dari casual/formal outing (and my face was reallyyyy in dirt), i apply the technique two times. baru la muka rasa bersih dan segar.

4. lepas tu, dah boleh bilas muka dengan air.

highly recommended

if my face happens to have acne, aku amek sedikit ubat gigi (tak kisah ubat gigi apa sekalipun - but i always prefer the white paste) and put it onto the acne spot. let the toothpaste covers the spot overnight. selalunya, treatment ni aku buat lepas cuci muka dengan mouthwash. always make sure your hand is sterile and hygienic so that the acne won't become any worse.

after few days, jerawat tu akan kecut. the next step, i'll apply tea tree oil which i only get it from the body shop. tea tree oil ni bagus sebab ia adalah sejenis antiseptik. so, kalau ada luka-luka kecik, you can simply apply it on the wound.

lagi satu. amalkan pemakanan yang sihat. selalu minum air putih. it will help you in catalysing the acne treatment. might as well eat a lot of fruits. i know, pesanan ni sungguh tipikal dan klise tapi know that, it wonders your beauty process.

sans maquillage - without make up

buy new outfits

i change my fashion gradually. kalau dulu aku selalu pakai baju merah, now, my outfits ada warna lain. same goes to my tudung. dulu aku selalu pakai tudung hitam sebenarnya sebab i find it easy to match with any of my outfits. but now, i bought some scarfs and shawls of many colour tones. not to forget, i actually buy outfits yang betul-betul kena pada saiz aku. ye lah, baju lama semuanya dah gelobos - bahu baju jatuh, pinggang kain besar, pesak baju tak padan and bla bla bla. i also bought belts. belt is an important accessory for the petites because it will emphasize your waist, thus elongating your figure. also, it makes you look slimmer (i guess).

mohd nak balik dah :(

go travelling

actually, i'm so much impressed with myself because i have the courage to plan my summer holiday. tak macam cuti musim panas yang lalu, i only dreamt about going to places yet i didn't make any effort. this time, bila aku kata aku nak pergi, aku pergi. for example, going to tawau. i won't forget the experience and i must say, it is a stepping stone to a new adventure of backpacking.

these five things, to me, they are a therapy. as a saying goes "pain is inevitable but suffering is an option". why should i succumb to broken heart when life is too short? doom and gloom shouldn't exist in the chapter anyway.

"hidup kau dah macam eat, pray and love kan?" - mohd.

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