"in, why d'you change your diet tiba-tiba?"
"why? you don't like it ke?"
handout 210, 201...
ok, mana A4 paper ni?
"not that i don't like it. but, you're shrinking. perasan tak?"
should be enough A4 ni.
kena emel colleen...kena-
"in, dengar tak?"
"apa dia?" aku masukkan semua dalam beg galas.
done.
nice.
"tu, tengok kat leher tu"
"kenapa?"
"cuba tengok kat cermin. bones"
depan cermin, aku perhati betul-betul imbasan figura sendiri.
"ala, nampak tulang je"
"yeah yeah yeah. tulang je. tak ingat ke kak nina tegur, you look kurus? cheng pun cakap benda yang sama"
"that's because in pakai baju lain kott. so, nampak la kurus"
"ok. now explain to me. cincin dah kena pakai kat jari hantu, instead of jari manis. both seluar jeans yang you baru pakai tahun ni, you have to wear them with belt. tak kan seluar tu cepat sangat expand?"
"abah cakap, cincin ni memang kembang kecut. and nad cakap aritu, seluar jenis yang in pakai, cepat expand"
"really?"
aku angguk.
"tapi, those people tak pegang you kan? tu, your friend from welly. explain her statement please"
"what statement?"
"yang masa dia peluk in, she said you're getting small. tak kan tak perasan lagi?"
tarik nafas dalam.
pandang dia.
"ye...in perasan semua tu. tapi, doesn't mean in sakit. i just change my diet"
"that's my question. why suddenly?"
"saja"
"there's no such thing as saja"
"look, you don't like ke i'm being like this?"
dia diam.
dipegang teddy dengan muka tak puas hati.
"pain is a bless" aku sambung bicara.
sambil duduk sebelah dia,
letak tangan atas ribanya.
"from positive side, it's good when i'm hurt. because my physical too, is affected. i know, i don't eat properly ever since the 'thing' happened. but, not to worry. i've got my meds standby. i've got you by my side. i've got everything under my control. i still can focus on my academic. abah is praying for me. so does umi. i'm just losing a piece of my life. bukan the whole jigsaw puzzle. and, i am strong. do remember that. lagipun, there is someone who'll save me. the hope to be saved, is there. i believe in that"
"so, berat in dah berapa?" tiba-tiba dia tukar topik.
"hish. rahsia"
aku gelak.
"in pergi dulu ok. nanti petang in balik. payah la takde internet kat sini"
"alright...do take care tau !"
"yee...eh, tolong siramkan pokok in nanti. thank you. bye !"
pintu bilik tingkat sepuluh aku tutupkan rapat.
aku gelak.
"in pergi dulu ok. nanti petang in balik. payah la takde internet kat sini"
"alright...do take care tau !"
"yee...eh, tolong siramkan pokok in nanti. thank you. bye !"
pintu bilik tingkat sepuluh aku tutupkan rapat.