a stepping stone

to begin with, i was out of nowhere scrolling down few photos of myself, taken in my first year in auckland. it was a sudden. i didn't know why i clicked the folder. probably i tried killing my time or distracting myself while i was taking my dinner (yeah, i love dining in front of my lappy - it's a new bad habit hahaha).

so, as i clicked one by one, reminisced what already happened to me, thought how my life has changed termendously, i came to this photo.

can you guess what's the photo all about?

before that, i think i should say a thank you to nizar. yes, thank you, nizar. if you're reading this, you better know the reason i said so. without your bitter words, i probably won't be here - right now, in this state.

so, back to our photo. 

this is it.

left : april 2011

right : march 2013

when people said i'm never a fat girl, i don't believe it. maybe they don't see me carefully. or perhaps they just throw the words to make me feel comfortable. whatever it is, i did take the right call - not to fall in that sugary, diebatic words. i know i was fat. i was plump. and i was chubby. what more, my attitude in consuming food was bloody sucks. i didn't care at all about what i'd taken for my body. i ate a lot of high calories meals, monosodium glutamate snacks, fast food and never i did any of exercises. i was a spoilt brat to myself.

then, came in my turning point. it was in march of my second year being in auckland. something ugly had happened to me. it was awful that i  think we don't have to go in details on that. i suddenly took serious about my figure. i changed almost everything i had as my routine. like for example, i had a clear-out of my food basket. chocolates, snacks, milo, cookies - you just name them. everything was out from my sight. then, i shopped new items. i bought more fruits and veges, cartons of almond milks, mixture of nuts, and not to forget, some tea bags. i also made sure i had a large bottle of water on my study desk.

in addition, i started to jog at auckland domain every early in the morning. but if the morning jogging didn't permit me, i would go there in the evening. 

ok, maybe my new routine was a bit harsh in the beginning. i did crash diet. i did vigorous work out. i was driven by my inner side, hence i couldn't be bother if this lifestyle i'd chosen might put me in danger. i was insane back then hahaha

so, now, i'm telling you - first and foremost, it's perfectly alright if you want to get into a new whole diet. but, i warn you here, please bear in mind, your health should come on top of the list. 

if you're saying i'm taking herbalife all this while, well, please be surprised - i am not. i don't have that large amount of money to buy those herbalife stuff. i'm just a student who solely depend on my scholarship. well, i don't dismiss the idea of taking it actually. in fact, i second for those who are consuming it. i believe, herbalife is a good starter kit to lose some weight ! indeed, it teaches you how to lead a healthy lifestyle. for a record, i seriously get jealous to whom can afford herbalife. i wish i could have one because i took a hard, long way to becoming of who i am now.

there's nothing else i want to share here except my diet story. for those who are in the process of losing some weight, i bid you all the best and good luck ! may all of us be beautiful inside and out :)

cheers.