have you ever...?

crying alone under your own pillow
with no one is there to listen what's your sorrow
and you grieve so much as if you have faced a death
till every second you have to hold your breath
it's because you want to cry soundlessly
so thus your roommates won't know about it
it's too much agony to suffer like this
owh you wish, everyting will be ceased
tears keep rolling down your cheeks
and you cuddle your pillow even tighter
it's only because you refuse to be weak
and you want to appear as a fighter