i've prayed for this heart to be unbroken

incomplete, backstreet boys.

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dearest my future husband,

hi again, honey. i hope you're best in health and may Allah always showers you with His bless, now and forever. i'm fine here physically, yet, emotionally weak for these few days back. heh.

oh, not to mention, i have cold and cough actually. abah insists me to take expectorant and chlorpheniramine maleate which are super, super cool drugs. why is that so super cool? well, once i take them, i definitely fall asleep. but, naaa...i won't take them. as you know me, i have loads of work here. though the deadline is not specifically stated in kak yatt's email, being a melancholic person who works profesionally based on schedule, i have set the date. that's why i rather push myself and finish up everything than taking the drugs, fall asleep and extend the date. no no no.

ok, enough about my work and me. besides, it's never fun after all.

fragile and delicate

dear, if you have read my previous posts, it is true enough to say i am hurt. yes, i admit, it is all my fault for being reckless and simply gave my heart to someone who should not have it. but, that's not the point. the real thing is, i would like to say i am sorry. really, i am. i'm sorry that you will own pieces of my heart. it is so much broken into millions, extra horrible to be looked at, double scary to be touched and i don't know if it is alright for you to keep it. i just don't know, sayang. anyhow, please do forgive me.

and i am hoping, you will mend my heart and take the best care of it.

loves,

your future wife.

aku memang bajet bakal suami aku orang new zeland kan?

takleh bla.